A Double-Fisted Faith

“Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.” (Psalm 91:14-16)

As I feel God leading me into greater hunger and thirst for Him and His Word, I simultaneously notice an increase in lies and attacks of the devil. He knows exactly where my buttons are and does not hesitate in working a wedge into the chinks in my armor.

Insecurities about my calling, my marriage, my very value as a person come into question where there was no doubt before.

When Eve was in the garden with the serpent, she was not forced to rebel. She was not even told to rebel. No, Satan used something even more subtle. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?” (Genesis 3:1)

He made her doubt.

Did God really say that? Verifying and second-guessing are two separate things, but unfortunately for Eve it’s not too clear in the heat of the moment. Tonight again I felt overcome with emotion as I heard tiny half-doubts.

Did your husband really promise to care for you, or is he just as fickle as other men? Are you sure God is calling you to do this? Are you sure you’re not just mistaking your own desires for God’s will?


I may be temporarily disabled from a lapse of doubt, but fortunately, the One who is in me is greater than the one who is in the world. God has gifted me with a double-fisted faith that protects me in the onslaught of doubt. He has given me supernatural armor which cannot fail.

“Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. (Ephesians 6:14-17)

With confidence I can stand on solid ground and say, “I have faith in God’s promises. And even if I am wrong, I will still believe God’s truth” In the end, it really doesn’t matter the outcome of these earthly endeavors. All that matters is that I cling to my God and “run with perseverance the race marked out” (Hebrews 12:1).

Confidence before atheism

Atheism is the denial of the existence of God. I have many friends and family who identify themselves as atheist, and I myself used to live as though it was true.

This is the subject on my mind today, and being on vacation, I have let myself slip with my daily readings. Suddenly when a situation arose, I felt naked and unprotected. I had to get to a private place and build up my confidence in Jesus, my salvation, and the Word.

What I found was Isaiah 32-33.  It’s kind of long, but I want to encourage anyone who is up to it, to take a moment to slow down, clear your mind, and read these 2 chapters in their entirety. Isaiah is speaking to about Jerusalem and Babylon, but reading this today, all I could think of was the end times; of people who turn to God for protection and forgiveness, and those who vehemently deny the existence of God.

33:13 Hear, you who are far off, what I have done;
and you who are near, acknowledge my might.
14 The sinners in Zion are afraid;
trembling has seized the godless:
“Who among us can dwell with the consuming fire?
Who among us can dwell with everlasting burnings?”
15 He who walks righteously and speaks uprightly,
who despises the gain of oppressions,
who shakes his hands, lest they hold a bribe,
who stops his ears from hearing of bloodshed
and shuts his eyes from looking on evil,
16 he will dwell on the heights;
his place of defense will be the fortresses of rocks;
his bread will be given him; his water will be sure

18 Your heart will muse on the terror:
“Where is he who counted, where is he who weighed the tribute?
Where is he who counted the towers?”
19 You will see no more the insolent people,
the people of an obscure speech that you cannot comprehend,
stammering in a tongue that you cannot understand.

It is easy to get carried away with our feelings and judgements on both ends of the spectrum. Remember –God alone is the judge of those who are not believers. Our job is not to attack, nor hide our light under a basket.

Be bold with how you express your Christian love: patient, kind, not envious, boastful, arrogant or rude. Not insisting on its own way, not irritable, nor resentful. It does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails (1 Cor 13).

This isn’t just a nice poem to recite at weddings, it is reality. “For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.the sword given to us that is so razor sharp it can  between the Soul and the Heart (Heb 4:12).

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ,  through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s lovehas been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us (Rom 5).

To learn more about atheism and how to respond, visit http://carm.org/atheism