I close my eyes real tight and try to imagine what Jesus would say, and how I would respond. I try to absorb his words and manufacture feelings of gratitude and deep love for Him. I force open a receiving heart and use a crowbar to break down fleshly strongholds. My ears are ringing with the sound of my own effort. I am not refreshed and I do not have the peace that transcends understanding.
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV)
Stop trying so hard, and know that there is nothing you could do to force a response. I have been trying to create a gilded tabernacle when all he really wanted was for me to come to him in my hunger and thirst. I suddenly realized why the ease and tenderness of a Psalm 23 relationship stays on the page. I wasn’t meant to control my own spiritual growth.
Lord, Help us let go of our will and cling to yours. Let us relax in Your loving care.